I am in a big pickle right now. My insurance was denied and I had to make an "appeal" to see if I can get it back because I had made a mistake and forgot to send in a form when they were doing an audit at my fiances job.
So, now I am out of health insurance for the next 30 days or more, and there is even a possibility I may not get it back. I have to wait and see if they will approve it.
I have been dealing with on-off episodes of severe depression for as long as I can remember since childhood. I was passed around to different Dr.s etc and I was never diagnosed with anything concrete. One would say this, one would say that, I went from medication to medication, and never was never sent to a neurologist to see if I have an actual affective disorder etc. I have been hospitalized 3x for suicide attempts. The first time I was 13years old, I was in a comatose like state for 3 days. I was lucky to live after that.
When I was 18 and moved away from home, things got better in a lot of ways, but also more and different issues have been arising. Since about age 18 or so now that I look back I see different patterns in my depression making me think possibly I have developed bipolar disorder.
Now I am a new Mom of a 3 month old son. I came down with severe Postpartum depression. My family Dr. put me on Wellbutrin XL, and right after this, my insurance was denied. It seemed like it was working, but now I have episodes of extreme aggitation to the point I feel like I am a volcano about to explode. My whole body tenses from the anger, I feel it in my neck, head….It seems like my mood swings are worse. I get so mad that I sometimes feel the urge to slice my wrists or swallow a bottle of pills. It takes everything in my being to stay as composed as I can and push out these thoughts. I am starting to get scared. My fiance is scared, he says he has noticed I am just getting worse.
I don’t know what to do because I have no health insurance and I NEED to get help. I need to be able to care for my son and work to help support him. We are going through a hard enough time as it is in this economy, I have lost so many of my investments etc….everything is a struggle up hill it seems, and now dealing with this and a new family make is so much harder. I have a supportive family and fiance, but I need professional help. I don’t know HOW to ween myself off this Wellbutrin or what to do when I run out? They are too expensive for me to afford without insurance. I just want to get better. I know I have a serious problem and I want to be better for my son. I dont know what to do, and I am so scared or losing my son ever since my family Dr. said that CPS can take him away if I don’t get better; (she said that they can say you are unfit as a parent even if you are caring for him and there is no abuse, but just for the simple fact you have postpartum depression or other mental illness makes you a danger? ) I try not to think of this. I dont know if she is trying to scare me or what…I just try to focus on being more postive. I am looking for online forums for help and still searching for free therapy but have had no luck with anything in my area.
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I believe that CPS will not try to take the baby as long as you are meeting your son’s basic needs, AND you are trying to get medical help and get medications.
A suicide attempt would definitely cause you to lose him!
I would ask my Ob-Gyn for a referral for post-partum depression. That is a serious disorder caused by hormone imbalances and other factors. PPD can keep you from bonding with your child and vice versa, so try to hold him and talk to him sweetly, no matter how bad you feel.
Wellbutrin is a good anti-anxiety drug, but you need something along with it for the depression. Ask your doctor if he can give you samples for the remainder of the 30 days.
Australia has an organization called MIND that helps people in your situation. See if you can contact them for help.
As long as you are caring for your son and there is no abuse, I doubt that the government would allow CPS to remove a child based on what "might" happen. In the US that would violate the Americans with Disabilities Act.
If you can’t get samples, tell your doctor your situation, and ask him how many pills it would take to safely wean yourself off Wellbutrin. Then you can plan ahead.
You can always go to the hospital in an emergency. They don’t expect the money upfront for the visit.
You can always buy half of a prescription, as well. Just tell the pharmacy.
Good luck to you.
your B12 levels could be WAY down…..do you just get mad for no reason or does somehting trigger it….
and i belive that if you can not afford medical help it will be paid for to an extent by the goverment. ya know HEALTHCARE.
Read the Gospel, Its free, and is the only thing that truly works. I’m praying for you…read.
i have been dealing wit depression for about 13 years , i have two children i am able to cook ,clean and do laundry for them but sometimes i have mood swings and have no insurance they are not in any danger because i love them and i dont think abussing a child because you think it is there faut your life is messed up is notthe answer
“Gospel” does not cure medical conditions, so please ignore that person?
Please go see your doctor. If they cannot get you your meds at a cost that is affordable to you, possibly another med would be cheaper that would work the same.
Also, and I do not condone using other ppl’s drugs or buying grey market pharmaceuticals, but some people get those drugs w/ insurance and don’t even use them, so if you have friends with insurance that is another way to get around this (again, I do not condone this, but knowing that my mother needs Cymbalta and its $400 and she cannot afford it and needs it and doesn’t have insurance, nor will she let me buy the drug for her from friends which pains me) Maybe you will be able to do just that. You should not be in pain because insurance companies only accommodate huge companies employees or government employees. If you need your medicine get it I say.
And no silly book will cure a medical illness such as depression, so do what you have to do dear. I wish you all the best. <3 Shan
(This post will probably be deleted for suggesting the possibility of "grey market pharmaceuticals", but I hope you get to see it, and if possible hope it helps)
HOW TO GET HELP FOR DEPRESSION ,WHEN YOU HAVE NO MONEY OR INSURANCE,WHAT CAN I DO??????????????????